Uneasy time

Is is hard to reach what you want, when it depends on others?
I mean it's one thing if it was only you but a whole different thing if there are others involve in the way things are forming.


The coming days are crucial time, very important, if anything went wrong that might change my whole life or my paths. I say might because one again I don't know what tomorrow's hiding, but I know one thing


I know that I will try to do my best and leave the rest to the universe.


I will try to be as cool and patient as possible, hope everything will be o.k, but I can tell you it's uneasy time.

Strange and Fast

We used to be friend, we used to talk, a lot
We used to be friend, we used to laugh, a lot
We used to be friend, we used to argue, a lot
And Now?
Now my friend, we don't see each other a lot!


It seems like somewhere, I don't recognize where, we stopped being friends anymore.
You stopped caring, you have changed. 
I stopped believing you are my friend
For you've changed, real fast.
Yesterday we were friends, now we are stranger!


The truth is, I stopped caring, too, but I know,
I will always be asking what happened to make you change so fast and 
what have I done to make you be so strange!


P.s: Friendship isn't on my priorities anymore.

Others Mistakes.

It's so shocking that most people don't learn from others mistakes and misfortune, I mean if you see a pattern happens, why do you think, your case will be different and nothing bad will happen to you,
for example, sometimes we see two people in love, completely trusting each other which is good, trust is good and nice but when trust becomes blind, then the results will be tremendously bad and heartbreaking.


And far from love an relationships, what about texting while driving? How many people lost their lives or worse took others innocent lives just because they were very  reckless and thoughtless and didn't learn from others mistakes. I see some people are afraid of getting catch by the police, and I'm really astonished, are they really afraid of cops more than death. This is silly and ridiculous. 


So, I guess all I have to say, you should see what happens to other people and take a good care of your behaviors, coz what befell them, could any time befall you, too.

We are not in control

We can't decide, we can't decide nor choose our destiny, our luck or our life. No matter how much we tried to control them, still they can't be controlled, they can't resign, they can't give up nor can we, however ,no matter how much we thought life is finally smiling to us, it's just lies, someday soon it will surprise us with some thing that will let us know, we are not in control, we can't choose nor decide.
We can object if we like, but it will do us no good.


written while listening to this fantastic music by:
Chaz Knapp - Delicate Goodbye

It's so weird

O.k. For people who doesn't know me, I'm the type of person who loves someone dearly and tries to be a good friend who stands by his or her side, but once that person hurts me, it's over. My feelings, our friendship, everything is over between us. I stop all the connections and the affections, I don't miss them any more and think about them less than rarely.


Been said all of these, there was someone I used to care about, let's say I had crush on him, but it was just from one side, I accepted that he loves another and yeah we were just friends I even was encouraging him to marry that other girl soon. 


It's been 3 years now from the last time we talked, we don't talk to each other again and it's not because he doesn't love me, coz I didn't tell him about my feeling any way and I considered him a friend in the end, but it's something else.


Any way he is married now, I don't know anything about him and frankly I don't care, you might think, then why I'm talking about him! well, yeah coz out of the ordinary, yesterday I had a dream about him and there was a girl who turned out to be a wizard, she was suppose to help me to let him found out that his wife is not good enough for him, but she didn't help me, I was angry at her, and I was so sad.with different circumstances happened in that creepy dream which I don't remember, all I remember is that I was in a party and everyone was having a good time and dancing but I was sitting alone in the corner, and suddenly he appeared, approached me and take my hand, as if he chose me!


I think I was happy there, coz he finally returned to me, but let's face it, it so weird to dream about him especially coz I don't have any left feelings toward him.

TV

Tv shows , series are a big part of my life, I really love tv. It's very dear to my heart, I see so many series in different genres from drama to sci-fi..etc... 

I don't know it's just amazing, when I watch any series episodes I feel so happy, watching them makes me feel good and I think it's makes me more powerful and carefree.

 I don't need nobody, I mean, I had many people in my life, now there are not there

but tv is there and it's lot interesting than all those people who by the way wasn't that good anyway.

Yeah, you might think I have no life, but as long as it makes feel good, that's enough for me.

I hope one day I can be on tv in some of the good series or shows, it's just a hopeless dream that I know it's so hard to make,but who knows, right ?

Dreams

Every one in this world have dreams, well to tell the truth I'm not sure of that, but let's pretend that statement is true, whether you have big dreams or small tiny dreams, you still want to make it happen, you still want it to come alive and here comes the hard part: How can we make it vivid and true? well, to me I think my dreams can't come true, and in my defense I blame it on my circumstance not me. 
I think you might say nah, forget about circumstances, you can do it.
well, yeah I can do some of them, but still I'm afraid to do that some.


In my opinion I think dreams come true depending on how lucky some one is
you might say no, luck has nothing to do with it and I would answer
actually luck has everything to with it and practically with everything else.

It's fair for you to know

Well, I'm not a big fan of blogs, you might think so what the hell is she doing right here!
I think it's not for people like me, it's for busy people who has a life full of new things or for people who like to share others their feelings and tell the whole world about them.
Ok, that's not me, I'm not gonna share, open up or what's so ever on your mind.
Maybe I will try to read others blogs, but I don't think my blog gonna be popular or anything special.